Hey man, sound familiar?
http://dealershades.bandcamp.com/track/down-the-path-dealer-shades-x-sadsic
yes! holy shit i didnt even know that song was ever used
hom?
Hey man, sound familiar?
http://dealershades.bandcamp.com/track/down-the-path-dealer-shades-x-sadsic
Yup. We're friends on FB. I don't remember how I met him though. Hahaha.yes! holy shit i didnt even know that song was ever used
hom?
Yup. We're friends on FB. I don't remember how I met him though. Hahaha.
Hahaha! Yeah, I posted B. Forever to a mutual friend's wall, and he commented on it. Pretttty amusing. -.-ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
yeah hom tanks is like a friend of a friend
the song in the background is a song i made around b. forever times... i dont even think he made that with my permission lol
*hugs*I'm crying and feeling so suicidal at this moment in my life... I haven't been able to restart college since I've been here successfully and I'm currently unemployed... my last girlfriend hates me and I don't have any money or friends really.
*hugs*
This sums up exactly me right now. I'm in no position to go through the entire thread right now, but this really struck a chord with me.
I'm going to check back in the next day or two with this thread.
In the meantime, I hope you find some peace and help.
So well said. I don't like when people say 'snap out of it' or 'pick yourself up by your bootstraps' because it's not that easy.This is going to sound rude, but my first response to this was 'fuck off'.
When it comes to depression and other forms of mental illness, there's no 'snap out of it'. It's not a matter of 'hey -- I know the cure for your depression. All you have to do is start smiling and thinking happy thoughts!'. If it were that simple then people wouldn't be depressed.
The whole point of depression is that you can't snap out of it. When that happens, people need help from others.
I prefer being happy for them that they don't understand.So well said. I don't like when people say 'snap out of it' or 'pick yourself up by your bootstraps' because it's not that easy.
yeah, that's very odd that at 16 and 17 the therapists were talking to your mother without you, at least about the diagnosis.
gonna see a therapist for in-take later today. hoping i dont get bullshit
Great, man. This is all you this time, remember that.
And
Your beats are buck nasty
Get yourself into production ASAP. Coming from a musician you seriously have a gift. At first listen I'm imaging hearing this behind hip hop, but you could do tons of stuff with it.
I would even recommend getting into commercial production (for stuff like tv spots) in order to make some money, since that's where the real money is. You're in portland? Get in touch with ad agencies, like Wieden+Kennedy or something and offer your services, maybe even cheap at first to get em hooked.
Really great stuff.
im in maryland lol
i would loooooove to get into production, get a degree, but i have had horrific panic attacks and anxiety going to college.
like last time i went i became so anxious i was afraid if i got out of my car i would be forced to commit suicide, i couldnt leave the parking lot to just go to class for like 3 hours
I had skimmed and saw something about portland, my bad. Where in maryland?
Either way, on the commercial side, there are ad agencies everywhere, and most of it would be freelance work where you wouldn't even need to leave your house. At my last company the I never even met the guy who put our videos together.
there's also sites like e-lance where you could start looking for basic production work. It honestly doesn't require a degree, you could easily start off doing gigs for a few hundred bucks doing background music for 20 second youtube videos. Build up a portfolio of that stuff and then start selling to bigger shops for more in-depth work. You'd be amazed at how fast it could all come together.
well you really need to continue... JEsus dood this shit is awesome been listenin for like 3o mintues while readyin the thread. Really good music. Don't stop if you have.....yeah that's me! that little album i did a few years back got some serious plays
it is like 80% of the reason i havent been able to kill myself... it is my one true passion in this broad stroke
:O no way... boughtAnd your tracks on your band camp are great as well.
http://sadsic.bandcamp.com/
You could go far with this stuff and I'm being absolutely serious.
Sadsic, listen to this man. It's not as hard as you think. I'm just learning this myself. I have an inferiority complex about my art compared to other people but I just made 500 bucks for a design I did. Something that I thought would take me awhile to do..but if you have the talent people will be willing to give you a chance...and you have the talent man. If you want to get a degree go for it, but right now, do what you can and what thespot84 said is completely right.
Whoa, this music is sick. Like holy shit. Lot of emotion. Is this a giant marketing ploy OP? If so it definitely worked.
It is possible to over-share with people before they can appreciate that you're not kidding around. And you should consider how you phrase things... you may think negatively, but there's something to be said about faking normalcy and happiness until you start believing your own shit.i dont possess shame whatsoever, im not scared of just telling every person i meet every disgusting thing i am
Yeah, don't do this. I don't think you need to maintain this relationship if even half of what you're saying is true. I also have a strain with my mother... mostly because I've been treated for my shit and she never stayed with any treatment (she has the same shit and goes on trreatment and then gets off as soon as she feels "better"). She resents me for getting a handle on it. My literal words to her "Get on the healthy train or get off of my cloud." It sounds like a shitty thing to say to your own mother, but at some point, you gotta get selfish and not be part of someone else's illness. Like your mom, she lies quickly and easily and will say everything's better in order to get the hooks back into my head. I don't think she knows what she's doing, but I've trained myself so that I know what she's doing.my mom contacts me a lot and she wants to fly me to her in the next few weeks actually
You're really going to have to get on a dedicated, long-term treatment plan before you can even see straight. Going on and off plans really just makes things worse because you never get a baseline on what "normal" really means. I realize that's hard to do without money... is there any sort of work you can do that won't trigger an episode? Do you feel better if you concentrate on tasks like labor?i cant really do what i want because i have anxiety and depression and mania and what have you without me triggering or controlling it
im in maryland lol
i would loooooove to get into production, get a degree, but i have had horrific panic attacks and anxiety going to college.
like last time i went i became so anxious i was afraid if i got out of my car i would be forced to commit suicide, i couldnt leave the parking lot to just go to class for like 3 hours
http://soundcloud.com/sadsic
i mostly work with samples / engineering... i can make roughly any sound, but i sort of stick around idm / ambient / hip-hop / weird stuff
I really dig your newer stuff... please put Axiom on you next album.
Seriously on the posters above.... Its fucked up for a person that supposedly loves you did all those things. You really should just stay away from her awhile, and see yourself grow without her influence, for while or a loong while.
It is possible to over-share with people before they can appreciate that you're not kidding around. And you should consider how you phrase things... you may think negatively, but there's something to be said about faking normalcy and happiness until you start believing your own shit.
i swear to god i was not trying to make this about my music; i like that more people are listening but i was not trying to just get hits or whatever by making up a sob story...
this has been my life so far