You're right, it was pretty intense. Maybe it's not the best medium to have gone through, but it's the one that just happened to be there and it worked out pretty well. I don't have much experience with how others handle guilt, but imagine this. Through my entire life, I am sought for my unbiased positions, for the way I can handle situations and how I can talk to others using experience; when I basically say "Nope all crap because so and so", it's like removing who I am and not entirely existing.
I appreciate the concern and the fact you sifted through my post to bring up an example. To better explain that situation, I made the quoted comment some time ago, a week later I felt remorse and guilt, I then had issues sleeping for ~4 days, and it was on my mind for 2 weeks (long I know). I don't think it's weird that I had such thoughts and guilt, though the medium that I used maybe weird.