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I'm giving in, ruined, tired, I think I'll be dead soon
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Dreams-Visions
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Mr. Giggles
Member
Don't do it OP.
PM me your psn let's play video games together.
PM me your psn let's play video games together.
Stevetopsy
Member
You only get one life. No second tries. Make the most of the one chance you have to be a part of the cosmos with the ability to actually be conscious and experience it all. There's so much to live for and your life can turn around when you least expect it. No one knows their future for certain.
AzureSkies
Member
Please make this call, there is seriously another way.
Glad you're OK brotha.
ferrasvansen
Member
I'm glad your ok for now was kinda worried reading your initial post, having been in a similar situation for the last 13 years I really feel for you. Go to the hospital ask for help, it's worth it for sure. Do not be embarrassed, no need for that here just stay safe and I wish you well for the next few days and weeks.
Dr. Buni
Member
I am not going to try to convince you to not die, OP. It is your life, you do what you want with it. Just remember you will not be able to regret it later, so think well about it.
You don't know that.
Shmuppers
Member
Don't be embarrassed man! You persevered!
You're a hell of a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for.
Blargonaut
Banned
cryptic, if you had written that autobiography because of my post in your other thread, thanks for taking the time to do so. And most importantly, thank yourself.
I find that it helps to write down the events of your past, summarizing mistakes, achievements and everything in between into coherent words; with a little time, you may look upon the words you've written and find that those passed minutes, hours, weeks and/or months have given you the ability to evaluate your life more objectively. Identification is the first step towards foundation.
I'm also glad to see that you've chosen to remain with the living; if you need a confidant, I'm here.
Personally, I've found that the best mental state to be in, is a sarcastic ennui. Not too optimistic, not too pessimistic, just the right level of humour. Try it, it's fun
I find that it helps to write down the events of your past, summarizing mistakes, achievements and everything in between into coherent words; with a little time, you may look upon the words you've written and find that those passed minutes, hours, weeks and/or months have given you the ability to evaluate your life more objectively. Identification is the first step towards foundation.
I'm also glad to see that you've chosen to remain with the living; if you need a confidant, I'm here.
Personally, I've found that the best mental state to be in, is a sarcastic ennui. Not too optimistic, not too pessimistic, just the right level of humour. Try it, it's fun
Bigboss242
Banned
Just got fired. called to see when I would work got a sat sun then ill let you go.
Don't feel embarrassed. Don't feel ashamed. You're not alone in your thoughts and feelings. No one in this thread thinks this is dumb or something. We all care enough to read your thoughts and give you our own and even share some of our hopes with you. Why don't you come back some time, when you're comfortable, and talk about some of the hopes you have? Some of the things that do make you smile, even if they are silly. Personally, I listen to podcasts. I watch silly let's plays on YouTube. When I feel really shitty, I sometimes like to appreciate the people who are working to make the rest of us feel just a little better, even in small, simple ways.
I've been dealing with some heavy weight for years, too. This is a process. Every step towards improvement will put you in a better place, no matter how much you doubt it or how bad you feel. The journey itself may become the reward, if you let it. Good luck.
I've been dealing with some heavy weight for years, too. This is a process. Every step towards improvement will put you in a better place, no matter how much you doubt it or how bad you feel. The journey itself may become the reward, if you let it. Good luck.
Dr.Guru of Peru
played the long game
Get help.
pixelation
Member
Dude what?, wrong thread?...
Anyways Cryptic... hold on, life is rarely easy/rarely fair, i've contemplated suicide quite a few times myself, i too have issues, i too dislike my life, i keep pushing everyone away... i don't know a lot, but i know that suicide is rarely if ever the answer, if i lived near you i'd come over and visit you to talk it out, hang out and maybe watch some movies and play games. I can't do that as i'm too far away, but i send you my best wishes and i hope that you find the strength to keep moving forward.
Messofanego
Banned
Sometimes we all got to write this kind of stuff down, and that process in itself can be cathartic. It can give you some perspective as you look back on the text. Some people use it as inspiration for their art. Novels, music, filmmaking, art, even videogames.
You've already succeeded by talking to the professionals and have sought for help. Many don't even write this stuff down and just die with no trace. All the things you found fun in life, would all just go away.
Here's a 30 second motivational pick-me-up by Matsuoka Shuzo:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxGRhd_iWuE
You've already succeeded by talking to the professionals and have sought for help. Many don't even write this stuff down and just die with no trace. All the things you found fun in life, would all just go away.
Here's a 30 second motivational pick-me-up by Matsuoka Shuzo:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxGRhd_iWuE
Normally having an alt is a bannable offense but hopefully the mods make an exception in this case...
Anyway, sorry to hear about your job. The important thing is to get help first. Then you can start looking for another job.
Seriously, get help.
Winterfang
Banned
Get Help OP!! This isn't your first thread like this. There's still time to turn it around.
Don't be embarrassed at all, just like the rest of us here, I'm glad you're doing ok. Please get help.
GameGuru59
Banned
Call the number OP and talk it through with someone. Life can feel like shit sometimes, but its important to focus on the future instead of dwelling on the past. There were times in my life where I saw no way to proceed, but you just gotta stay hungry and move forward, now I'm pretty damn happy with my life. It sounds like bullshit, but you can be anything you want to be. You just can't give up. You have to believe it as fact in your heart that you can continue to improve your condition- and you can. You just have to know it in yourself. You can do that. We all know you can.
OP, come on buddy call the hotline. Get yourself right.
Edit: Didn't see progress was made on this front. Looks like you didn't go to the hospital... Please go now.
Jeffolation
Banned
Who is playing?
Reach out to that other Boston-GAFFER that wanted to chat in your other thread. I am sure he would come meet ya.
Lactose_Intolerant
Member
call the police again
Yeah, we need some help here.
akachan ningen
Member
It's just a concert. There will be more in the future.
Go to the hospital, your posts are cries for help and people here are reaching out to you but you need to reach out yourself.
There's nothing wrong with needing some help, you just need to let them.
You can do this, turn the disappointment of the concert into doing something positive for yourself.
littletran22
Member
I will quote this again and again if I have to.
SEEK HELP. STOP POSTING HERE.
Life may be fucked up but you will still have chances to turn it around. YOU will always have a chance, please don't waste it by giving in despair.
RPGCrazied
Member
Yeah, seek help. Talk to someone, even by phone. Get some hobbies, I have many, and it helps whenever I have a bout with depression. Glad I have them.
Vent as much as you want, no one likes to miss a concert. You must be gutted, they will tour again though.
This shit has happened, can't change tonight but you can make something positive out of it by finishing the plan you made before about going to the hospital.
Then you can say well I missed the concert, but at least I did that. It's a positive step.
Just chill, so you can maybe get your ID and come back?
littletran22
Member
GOOD. As long as you take the first step, just stop posting and making threads like this... everyone is willing to help and support you but you have to engage yourself first. Keeping this up will only set yourself to further depression and dependency. This is not how we want your life to be!
forknknife
Banned
You seem to love music and music has helped me immensely in my life. Please, look into the things you like about life, I'm sure there are many more for you to discover that will make your life worth it. Start a band, go on a trip, join a gym and punch bricks... whatever but doing something like that.
i understand this completely.
I will never post another sad thread
I can be happy.
Dude, I know you don't want to but go check yourself into a hospital. It is the best course of action.
Insane Metal
Member
I understand you, OP. I really do. Please seek professional help. Not just anyone. Try to find actual GOOD professionals. It can make a huge difference in your life.
You know what,thank you for posting this.
I read all of it ,and now I feel a bit better about my own loneliness and pathetic personal condition.
Also,your writing style is great.I could relate to everything you wrote through your valuable post and clear,emotional diction.
At least we can all offer some help and share our pains on this platform,to some degree.
I read all of it ,and now I feel a bit better about my own loneliness and pathetic personal condition.
Also,your writing style is great.I could relate to everything you wrote through your valuable post and clear,emotional diction.
At least we can all offer some help and share our pains on this platform,to some degree.
I agree with the comment about your writing. I always enjoy reading cryptic's posts because of his writing style.
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