For those with ears to hear, and all others who will, eventually - (channeled for you all, I am a medium) Unedited :
You are on the wrong track, and yes I speak to you, reading this, to set you right. You cannot measure energy with a ruler, as you would say, a table. And thus you are looking at your life issues with a yardstick. Medication, therapy, peers, and especially those you have attracted, information attracted, all fitting in neatly with your thoughts.
Now, open your mind and read the following :
You came into this world with a theme. And all of your experience will seemingly cooborate, even as the opposite information is available, you will only file what fits. For example, when you are born, a gun is shot. The bullit will fire straight throughout your life, it has a set course, you cannot change the trajectory, even in suicide, but what you can change thusly overcoming, is your perception and beliefs. Those occuring as the bullit passes through time on its path.
It is true that you create your future with your current thoughts, and that includes sojourns as well. If you should die tomorrow, the future will pick up where you left off, and yes, in another life. You are working things out, you see. So your next life will be set as the theme, and the gun will fire, and you will again blame this and that, until...you set your mind aright.
I am telling you, you create your life, this one and the next, and it will never end. You create, period.
The theme feels badly, so you can learn to feel, and give validity to you, and who you are. Most of you feel your validity stripped, you will learn nothing has power over you.
It is better, in the position you all are now, to practice a game, every day, and say if it doesnt work, well, hell, I gave it a try, its just a game.
For 15 minutes daily, close your eyes and picture the life you want to lead, more money, friends, relationships, qualities you wish to posess, and for this time, live it out. Just as vividly as you would do pictureing your current conditions, and living those out.
Lastly, you are meant to learn to think aright, and to create your life, live it, and feel good doing it. All opposition is set before you to teach you through it, including the parents chosen, the people in your life, everything.
In your current thinking you draw to you the experience you think about, and thus the physical world lines up with your intent. You only need to play a different game, to line it up differently, so to speak.
Best wishes for a prosperous future.