Had a doctor's visit today.
1) She tells me I'm really smart (she's seen the brain scans, so I guess she'd know) and that I'm making good progress.
2) She tells me about a new form of one of the things I'm supposed to take. Should reduce the massive headaches I get, meaning I can actually take it more often.
3) She helps me refine the things I need. Some additions, some subtractions. Overall, it's more focused. Basic lifestyle adjustments too. Lots of the things I've been doing this year are actually good.
4) Still no 'name' for what I have, so it's still gonna be hard to explain to people. Short version is still "my body doesn't process things it's exposed to the way it's supposed to, so that impacts everything from endocrine production to the production of ATP."
5) She gave me a discount on the treatment I need most, so I went ahead and did that. I feel so amazing. It's like... if you've ever walked at the bottom of a deep scuba tank, imagine that pressure. With this treatment, I feel like I've just surfaced and can move normally. It's incredible. Too bad I can't get this every day, which is what I seem to need. That's me, all the time, but with more pain and fatigue.
6) My former EEG/neuro therapist saw me; we talked for about an hour. She gave me a great big hug at the end. Emotionally, this was incredible.
You guys did this. You guys are improving my quality of life--saving it, actually. I can't afford all the things she recommended yet, but yeah. This is going to work. Healthwise, I'll be okay in no time.
Nothing's changed on the job front, still waiting to hear back about the investigation into my dismissal. Fingers crossed the ex-boss gets some sweet, sweet justice and I find employment or get a game kickstarter going before the Fall.
Right now, it feels like I'm hanging on a rope that's about to snap, but I'm feelin' like... "yeah, I can get out of this. Not sure how yet, but I will."
Anyways, yeah, for personal reasons, I've got myself suspended from GAF for a while.
Don't worry.
Should come bearing nice surprises, if the timeline works out.
I appreciate all your help. I can definitely still use more. But I'm
hopeful now, and happy. I legitimately feel like I can survive this now, more than I have before. I love you guys. Peace.